Friday, October 28, 2005

Praying for one another

I believe so strongly in the power of prayer...my belief is that God rejoices in a family of his coming together to lay their requests at his feet. In my heart I understand that in this life we are very limited in what we know and understand....we have just a droplet in the bucket of what our Lord knows and wills. Yet, without knowing even a reasonable part of the picture we are to walk throught each day with faith in our Father, that the things that befall us in this life have a purpose, meaning and are for our good and complete the "big" picture. The only problem is someone forgot to tell my emotions about all of this!

I have been struggling with a migraine since Sunday....I have taken all the medicine allowed, which also worries me since I am not one to take medicine. The last week has been an exhausting week...waiting on results of my brother-in-law's CAT scan, all the talk about our family friend Theresa and her death and to top it all off this nagging migraine that I can not seem to get rid of. I woke up the other morning and when I went into my bathroom and looked in the mirror, my right eye was droopy...it scared me! With these migraine it is a struggle to function...my head just pounds, I see spots, I stay sick to my stomach and my emotions and thoughts run wild. Trying to push through, my daughter left me the car one day this week so I decided that if I got out it might do me some good. I got dressed, hair, makeup and all, even though I had the feeling I was going to throw up at any moment and drove the car the 11 miles to Thomson. My visit to my little favorite store was short lived....my vision was blurry, my head was pounding, my stomach upset. Needless to say, I cried all the way home feeling very defeated, very tired and a little afraid.

I was able to get in to see a doctor I admire and trust very much. The appointment is for Monday afternoon and I am just counting the minutes. My life is usually a very simple, joyful life. I can see one leaf turning colors on one of my trees signaling fall and it will make my whole day. I can get the housework done and can hardly wait for my husband to come home and brag about how clean everything is....I love even the simplest things about my life. But, this make me feel so burdened, oppressed, empty. My time is spent trying to keep my mind from going where it should not instead of being free to feel the joy of my Lord and life. So, as my christian brothers and sisters I am asking you to take some of the burden from me and pray for me.....pray that my panic thoughts can be bound and that the doctor on Monday will have some very simple answers for me like changing my dosage of medicine or trying some other type of medication. Prayer that the peace of our Lord will engulf me this weekend and that I will be freed from the pain of this migraine. Prayer that I can come to the place where my emotions and thoughts don't override my faith. And lastly, if it is God's will pray that I will be healed from these migraines altogether. Thank you for being one in the faith of our Lord, Jesus Christ!

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am glad that you mentioned that you needed prayer. We tend to forget ourselves or do not tell anyone anything because we do not want to bother others with things. Prayer is Powerful! Where 2or3 are gathered, God is there.
You are lifted up!

Colette said...

Bomba,
How right and insightful you are. I didn't realize until today that I have been holding this burden for sometime, not wanting to complain and not wanting to seem weak physically. Satan has also played a hand in it...telling me those are so many more than have bigger struggles than mine...loading me up with condemnation and isolating me from the truth. So I have tried to put on my "happy face" but it has gotten to the point where it is toooo much for me. Thank you for your faithfulness as my brother in Christ and thank you for lifting me up...I know God is faithful, just need to get back on the right track and I know prayer warriors are the beginning!
Your sister in Christ,
Colette

Jan said...

Dear Friend, You have my prayers. I suffer from the occasional migraine as well. I know that mine are stress related. Other people have told me to avoid certain foods, but that doesn't seem to affect when I get them. I haven't had one in a long time. But, I've noticed that the pattern is that I get them after a crisis, when things seem to be calming down.
You've had a lot of stress lately. And, I'm glad you've asked for prayer. Otherwise we wouldn't know that you were suffering like this.
So....God, cover Colette today with your amazing love and peace. Grant her healing in this area of her health. Or, as you will God, give her new ways of dealing with these headaches. Help the doctors to ask the good questions, and come up with remedies that will be just the right ones. God, we are learning to surrender every aspect of our lives to you. You've been teaching us to trust in you. So, we exercise that trust right now, knowing God that we fully trust you to do what is best for Colette. We thank you that you are a God who loves to bless. In Jesus name.

Colette said...

Jan,
Much recieved and much appreciated. I just need to get lost in a project until Monday! Projects help me keep my mind off of everything...good or bad...my poor family (hahaha). I spoke to my mom today and told her how I had been feeling and she reminded me that when I was a baby I was diagnosed with a terminal disease. My mom shared that with my aunt...my aunt's church prayed over a cloth, sent it to my mom, ay mom pinned it in my night-shirt and then at the next doctor's visit they could find NO evidence of the disease. She reminded me to remember that...that I am living proof of the answer to prayer and of God's healing power. I will hold tight to that this weekend. And by the way, my aunt lived in High Prairie. Alberta...doesn't life have it's twists!!!
Thanks again friend....
Colette

Jan said...

I'm still thinking about you today, Colette.

Anonymous said...

just checking in from "Munford Chaos." I am here visiting my mother and dad. The start of my vacation is so far so good. I hope you are feeling better. If I get a chance throughout the week, I will post a blog.

Jan said...

I'm thinking about you today, as you go to your doctor's appointment. Praying they will give you insight into better medicaions, or ways of alleviating these headaches all together.
May God reign even in this.